Unboxing

Entering 3rd month of being laid off and off business.

It has been a great time to reviewing my life and I’ve attempted conceptualizing some business ideas or basically what would be my next step in life. To think about having build things back from zero is daunting. I really don’t want to go there again after all these years. But what are my options? Mid 30’s woman with extensive experience in failing startups. Ok I am being a little dramatic here, I can surely describe my professional profile in a much much better way, but there’s that, and it got me thinking: Why were the startups after me? What are the qualities they were looking and how much were they willing (or able) to compensate? The answers tho these questions helped me to figure out why I always end up in the same situations more than I could possibly count.

I also figured myself trying to put things in boxes, in categories, to the extent that I think of myself as having to fit into the boxes of my own creation. Having to be “clear” about what I write in where. While it helps, it can also be limiting for a generalist who is interested in so many different things.

Finding the answers about startups and that I’ve subconsciously put myself in boxes lead me to think that I have been offering myself to Satan, thinking I was doing the world a favor.

There’s no regret, just lessons. Maybe instead of offering myself to Satan and help him, I can be a demon myself. Doing my own thing. Fighting my own battles.